I went to Astronomy Club at the beginning of lunch, where I pointed out that it may not be such a good idea to go to a deserted hilltop in a park at night, alone... staring up at the sky... the area surrounded by trees... while the sniper is on the loose!  Our telescope is indefinitely postponed.  Well well.  Then there was D&D at the media center for the remainder of lunch, where I got some armor real cheap with quite a bit of G left over.  We didn't really get anywhere, but some of the more tedious aspects have been taken care of.  We really should have done all that at the beginning.  Anyway, after lunch, I have a horrendous class... correct?  Math class?  With Ostrowski.  He seemed rather surprised when I pointed out or explained the obvious three times today.  It seems he didn't think of it / know it, previously.  GAH.  On one hand, I wish my class were a bit more... challenging... even in these review units.  On the other hand, I can see myself actually getting a decent grade with minimal effort.  Yippie.

Mr. Beach: *thwack*
Me: !!!!!  What was that for??
Mr. Beach: You can't have a giant foam finger without hitting someone with it!  :D

I have issues with...

walls food theory shelter immortality

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I have issues with...

shelter cost dishonesty immortality memory

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I have issues with...

children innocence age walls society

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I dunno, I think I like the results of the last one the best.  Standard word list instead of random, 25 words instead of 100.


take free enneagram test

In addition, these are my top three:

9: You desire peace, for everyone to get along.  Impetus - deficit and/or excess of peace in your life experience.  Problem - there is always a certain amount of conflict in the world and some level of it is healthy.

1: You desire affirmation, for everyone to agree with you.  Impetus - deficit and/or excess of affirmation in your life experience.  Problem - it is impossible to have everyone agree with you no matter what views or roles you adopt.

3: You desire acclaim, for people to respect your achievements.  Impetus - deficit and/or excess of esteem in your life experience.  Problem - you can't win everyone's esteem no matter what you achieve.

Ohhh, blah.  I just finished taking those online quizzes for homework (click on Chapter 3 and Begin, then Multiple Choice) and it took me four tries to reach my goal.  Grrr.  It only took me two tries in Chapter 2.  Basically I won't let myself submit the scores to my teacher unless I get only one or zero questions wrong.  That's not necessarily so easy if you don't read the chapter that the quiz is based on.  ^_^;;  Well, I did read part of it... about a month ago... or more...

Chapter 3: 61%, 83%, 83%, 96% (one wrong)
Chapter 2: ??%, 97% (one wrong)

So anyway, I was listening to my new Dance Dance Revolution 4th Mix cd while walking on the treadmill... but when putting the disc into my computer, I noticed that Windows Media Player displays the titles of all the songs.  The song titles are English words.  The titles are displayed in Japanese, or more specifically, katakana characters.  And I can read it!  I'm very pleased with myself indeed.  Although I really am out of practice as it is.  Oh, and as for the treadmill: 1.5 mi, 3 mph.
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 16, 2002, at 06:56 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Just so you know, now that I've got this commenting system in place, I'm expecting you to comment on my entries.  Yes, by "you" I mean everyone who reads this page.  Which would be what, 3 people?  Anyway, I think I have it working now.

Sandy: *waves*
Mr. Ostrowski: *smiles*  *waves*
Sandy: Was that Mr. Beach?
Everyone: .....
Me: That was my math teacher!
Sandy: That's him?  He looks so nice!  And he smiled and waved to you!

He punched my head.  My head hurts.  He punched my head.  I'm dizzy.  He punched my head.  The world is starting to swirl.  He punched my head.  She stepped in.  He hit her instead.  The world comes back into clearer focus.  Things still aren't clear.  The world is in focus.  The world isn't clear.  Life doesn't make sense.  I can't hear what people are really saying.  I can't see what is really going on.  I don't want to see things anymore.  I don't want to hear things anymore.  The world is fading again.  Good bye for now, see you tomorrow.
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 15, 2002, at 09:17 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I got distracted from doing useful things by downloading some skins for Opera, I now have a very wooden looking web browser.  ^_^

My baby pictures are so cute!!!  Anyone who reads this, ask me to see some of them, I love them so much!
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 15, 2002, at 06:14 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Um.  I woke up too early again.  Just online because there's nothing else to do from 6:40 to 7:00 am (no, I am not going to do last minute PSAT prep).  I guess I'll go outside or somethin' now...
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 15, 2002, at 06:57 a.m... it's never too late to change the past

Um... yeah.  Today went even better than I'd planned, but then again I did plan for it to be a bad day.  Y'know, frantic scrambling and all.  Little sticky rubber spiders are tremendously fun...  I think my plans for tomorrow will be fine.  I make these complicated plans for accomplishing all my homework, and they usually don't work, but I think today's worked rather well, so I'm going to try again.  May attend Anime Club and It's Ac tomorrow, we'll see how that goes...
i spiral into oblivion on Monday, October 14, 2002, at 08:45 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

What Drink Are You?

What's it like to read about someone you know in another person's journal?  Surreal...
i spiral into oblivion on Sunday, October 13, 2002, at 07:55 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Bleehh.  I feel tired and mildly sick.  But I can't possibly be sick, oh nooo, I need to do my textnotes.  I'm supposedly stressed out over the IB, despite the fact that I would rather do homework in a vacuum than live a normal life.  Whatever.  Added to my to do list is to watch 10 vcd discs of Mist Over Dream Lake (I can't read the Chinese title, but that's what the translation is)... and find a translation for my Vietnamese relative who can't understand the spoken Mandarin or the Mandarin subtitles.  Hell, I'd translate this myself if I could understand it, but shamefully, I can't.  This nice li'l series stars F4.  For the uninformed, F4 is a Chinese pop group that happened to do a cover of one of N Sync's songs, and did it better, at that.  They're somewhat amusing to see in concert, as I did on a vcd, but I cannot tell (thanks to the language barrier) whether they can sing or act at all.  My ears aren't bleeding, and I'm not blind, if that helps.

Back to homework.  Back to textnotes.  I don't think I'm looking forward to Junior year very much, it's going to be like taking 6 college classes on a high school schedule.  Bleehh.  *goes back to treadmill miserably*  Did I mention that this is my third consecutive day of not meeting my treadmill goal?  I tried to justify it with all the 1.5 hours of painting I did on Friday and the walking around the Sheraton Premiere for Anime USA I did yesterday, but I don't think it quite works out.  Watch me go back to panting and struggling through a 2 mile walk tomorrow... ¬.¬;;
i spiral into oblivion on Sunday, October 13, 2002, at 07:42 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I'm itching to redo my puny page with more than a half hour's effort, but I'm forcing myself to do homework-related activities first.  Which either means walking on the treadmill or doing PSAT practice.  (Did you really think I'd be doing my actually assigned homework?  Hahaha.  You deluded soul...)
i spiral into oblivion on Friday, October 11, 2002, at 07:18 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Er... I'm tired.  I stayed after for Set Dec, painted the back wall of the auditorium for 1.5 hours.  The Math quiz and French VDS was okay, but the Math quiz was again written in typical Ostrowski fashion, you'd think I'd be used to it by now.  It sometimes tests on whether we're paying attention to the problem rather than whether we have gained mastery of this topic's concepts.  I don't like it, but I don't think it's against any rule.  Teachers are given a good deal of power in a student's world.  Nevertheless, I think I did okay... but if it turns out I got a B on that quiz, I will be very upset, because that would be my first B in this class.  ^____^  I'm good, aren't I?  Anyway, I did eat dinner, and should be going to go take a shower and walk on the treadmill... and do my homework... and get ready for Anime USA tomorrow... and do even more homework... and get ready for Chinese class tomorrow... and a lot of other things... *sigh*  Life's too busy nowadays, isn't it?  I do miss some things from 9th grade.  I do miss some people as well...
i spiral into oblivion on Friday, October 11, 2002, at 06:32 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Woo hoo, I walked 2 miles in 40 minutes again today.  Too bad it's getting harder each day I do this... what the hell is up with that??  Well, still must study for Math and French, and do my Chem homework, I cannot believe I haven't started my homework yet... there's that long-term Math, AP US History, and Art & Culture, too... urgh!  I hate long term projects, I always lose my train of thought when working on them!  Bleh... well... I can handle the textnotes, I don't mind them so much.  But, art journal?  Ewwww.  I want to drop Art & Culture.  I'm serious.

Well... I must prepare to go to Anime USA this weekend, as well as that family business, and... what else?  Chinese too.  And Astronomy Club telescope night next weekend?  Glorious!  I'm well on my way to spending all weekend outside of the house.
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 10, 2002, at 09:29 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Reading AynRand.org right now.  Please don't recoil in horror, it's a break in the monotony of ReligiousTolerance.org, that's all.
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 10, 2002, at 07:35 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Ug.  Very tired.  I should be on the treadmill right now, but I'm still too full from eating earlier to go quite yet... soon, soon.  Must do Chem homework, study for Math, study for French (hurriedly memorize a bunch of words that I'll forget in 24 hours).
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 10, 2002, at 06:31 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

Since I have nothing better to do, here are my notes from CP2.Java:

Organizing Program Solutions - 10.10.2002

Top-Down Design
Takes a problem and breaks it down into mind size chunks

Object Based Design
Discrete objects are used within context of traditional top-down design

Object-Oriented Design
Object hierarchies form a substantial part of problem’s design

Top-Down Solutions in Java
Generally when decomposing a method in Java, the methods that it is decomposed into will be private.  They are private because they are to be used only within this particular class.  In addition they will generally be static.  They are static because they are not methods associated with an instance of a class but with the program class itself.

Questions To Ask Yourself When Writing Headings For Methods:

Is the method written to be available outside of the class?  (private / public)

Is the method accessed using the class or an instance of the class?  (static / or not)

What does the method return?  (void / a type)

What is the name of the method?

What is passed into the method?  (parameters - never returned)

JML for TopDownMerlinTheMathWizard (UML = Universal Modeling Language)

Symbols:
   +   public
   -   private
   $   static

ConsoleApplication:
Class property
EasyReader keyboard = new EasyReader();

Methods:
   PressEnter()
   Pause(int milliseconds)

ANSIConsoleApplication
   Methods:
      ClearScreen()
      GotoXY(int x, int y)
      SetForegroundColor(int color)
      SetBackgroundColor(int color)

+   ANSIConsoleApplication

+   TopDownMerlinTheMathWizard
-   int PAUSE_LENGTH
//level 0
+   void main(String[] args)
//level 1
-$   void GreetTheUser
-$   void GiveDirections
-$   void PredictTheOutcome
-$   int GetUserNumber
-$   void HaveUserCalculate(int userNumber)
-$   int CalculateResultForUser(int userNumber)
-$   void CheckResult(int result)

Class, your homework for tonight is to continue into //level 2 for any one of those functions.  Have a good time.

While I wait for another interesting overhead sheet of notes to be placed, I'm looking at Megan's LiveJournal's Friends page... all those cuuuute little pictures of cats!  It's things like these that make it hard to stay a dog person.  O_o
i spiral into oblivion on Thursday, October 10, 2002, at 12:44 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I just finished walking 2 miles on the treadmill, and not until the very last of the 40 minutes did I start to feel better.  But I'm perfectly fine now, today's dark cloud has lifted, and life is looking the slightest bit more colorful.  I ate a bit of powdered chocolate too... don't know if that had anything to do with it.
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 9, 2002, at 07:56 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

8-bit Theater's URL is now http://www.nuklearpower.com/ instead of http://www.nuklearpower.com/comic/, and all of my links have been updated accordingly, have yours?

I took some sort of temperament quiz, and determined that I am...

Your Temperament is: Guardian (SJ) I'm common: 40-45% of the population

------------------GENERAL INFO------------------
Time starting: 2:00 pm
*Date: 10-09-2002
*Name on Birth Certificate: grace
*Age: 15 (I think... I'm not quite sure)
*Birthday: 7-5-00
*Location Born: Washington, D.C.!
*E-mail: fighting2win@hotmail.com
*Color of eyes: brown
*Hair: black
*Height: 5'6"
*Shoe size: 8-10, depends what kind of shoe
*Who lives with you: my family
*When is your bedtime? er... 9 pm...

------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
*Ever been so drunk you blacked out?: hell no
*Been hurt emotionally?: in a shallow sorta way, yeah
*Kept a secret from everyone: not to the best of my knowledge
*Had an imaginary friend: nope
*Cried during a Movie: yes....... and i'll never say which
*Had a crush on a teacher: ewwww no
*Ever thought an animated character was hot? oh boy... don't get me started
*Been on stage: safely hidden behind a music stand
*Cut your hair: yeah
*Been sarcastic: yes

------------------FAVORITES------------------
*Shampoo: anything that doesn't make me want to hack off my hair with a chainsaw
*Day/Night: night
*Color: colors suck
*Summer/Winter: winter
*Smiley: ¬.¬
*Lace or Satin: neither!
*Fave cartoon character: link... or kenshin... or spike spiegel... or, umm...
*Fave Food: teriyaki chicken
*Fave Movie: the only movies i like are spider-man / ocean's eleven / the bourne identity / princess mononoke / peter pan / the lion king
*Fave Ice Cream: none (i've tragically lost my taste for ice cream)
*Fave Subject: math (except this year, >.<, i hate my teacher...)
*Fave Person to talk to: ehehehe...

------------------RIGHT NOW------------------
*Wearing: "EASTERN DRAGON" shirt, wayyy too baggy because it's my brother's... jeans (which I normally never wear) and weird blue shoes
*Hair is: up in a bun
*Im feeling: irritable, but all this typing is starting to relax me
*Eating: nothing
*Drinking: water
*Thinking about: someone
*Listening to: distant phone ringing (or is that in my head?)
*Watching: my computer screen
*Talking to: nobody.......... i miss school

------------------IN THE LAST 24 HOURS------------------
*Cried: hell no
*Worn a skirt: not for the past 5 years
*Met someone new: uh uh
*Cleaned your room: nope (but it sure needs it)
*Done Laundry: eh... no
*Drove a car: i may never..

------------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
*Yourself: yeah!  i rock!  ("i stone!  i boulder!........")
*Your friends: sure
*Santa Claus: never did
*Tooth Fairy: never did
*God: course not
*Destiny/Fate: nope
*Ghosts: no
*UFO's: definitely the most plausible out of this list... but no

------------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
*Do you have a g/boyfriend? err... what?
*Like anyone? yes
*Who have you known the longest of your friends: willie, jackie, and wen... i think
*Out of your friends whose the loudest: decibel-wise?
*Whos the weirdest: ^_^........
*Who do you go to for advice?: um... willie, wen, dan, or alex
*Who do you cry to? no one
*Whats the best feeling in the world: i don't know yet
*Worst feeling: again, i don't know yet
*Who will respond to this email the fastest? this isn't an e-mail
*Who did you send this to who probably wont respond?: i said, this isn't an e-mail!!!
*Who sent this to you? i stole it off some pitas.com blog
*Do you want all your friends to do this and send it back to you?: how would they?  it's not an e-mail.
*What time did you finish? 2:16 pm (damn I'm slow...)
.....

That was so long, I switched between capitalization and no capitalization several times.
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 9, 2002, at 01:58 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I caved and took another quiz.

Your Existing Situation
The situation is difficult and she is trying to persist in her objectives against resistance.  Finds it necessary to conceal her intentions as an added precaution, in order to disarm the opposition.

Your Stress Sources
The existing situation is disagreeable.  Feels lonely and uncertain as she has an unsatisfied need to ally herself with others whose standards are as high as her own, and wants to stand out from the rank and file.  This sense of isolation magnifies the need into a compelling urge, all the more upsetting to her self-sufficiency because of the restraint she normally imposes on herself.  Since she wants to demonstrate the unique quality of her own character, she tries to suppress this need for others and affects an attitude of unconcerned self-reliance to conceal her fear of inadequacy, treating those who criticize her behavior with contempt.  However, beneath this assumption of indifference she really longs for the approval and esteem of others.

Your Restrained Characteristics
Egocentric and therefore quick to take offense, leaving her rather isolated in her attachments.

Trying to calm down and unwind after a period of over-agitation which has left her listless and devoid of energy.  In need of peace and quiet; becomes irritable if this is denied her.

Your Desired Objective
Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding.  Refuses to allow anything to influence her point of view.

Your Actual Problem
The need for esteem--for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself--has become imperative.  She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

Your Actual Problem #2
Disappointment and the fear that there is no point in formulating fresh goals have led to anxiety, emptiness, and an unadmitted self-contempt.  Her refusal to admit this leads to her adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude.

Bullshit... I don't have that many problems.  Is this test somehow warped like that?
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 9, 2002, at 12:25 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

In stark contrast to my fake soppiness / dry factual reporting of the Montgomery County shootings, Min sums it up quite well: "And most importantly, if you armed any one of these people with a high velocity rifle, they'd probably end up shooting a toe off."

I know everyone expects this sniper to be from Montgomery County, for whatever reason, but really... what kind of person in this area knows anything about guns?  Or maybe, you'd like to hear what one of my teachers had to say... (I'll keep this anonymous): "These shootings have been pretty much all before morning rush hour, or after evening rush hour... right?  Who's to say that the killer isn't still going to work and returning home as normal?"  Right.  I'll end on that happy thought.
i spiral into oblivion on Wednesday, October 9, 2002, at 12:11 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

"Tell children that it is okay to turn off the TV or to change the channel so that they don't become overloaded with disaster information"

...and other such things I would not tell a child, if I were in charge of some poor creature's mental health... (oh, the possibilities)
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 8, 2002, at 09:13 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

I type here too much, ya know?  I've already got three pages full of archived entries.  That's probably more than my real life journal right now.  It's not like it's very interesting stuff, either, but there's a lot of it, thanks to all the recent violence.  I won't get started on our Prez Bush and taking notes on the possible war on Iraq... man, that'd be 50 or so entries alone...

In other unrelated news, I felt really tired and sore today, so I let myself stop at 1 mile walking / jogging combo.  It's alright... because I feel energized now.  ^_^  Yeah, even if I did sit down halfway through to reply to IMs and stuff... I need to learn to sign off AIM when I'm on the treadmill!
i spiral into oblivion on Tuesday, October 8, 2002, at 09:00 p.m... it's never too late to change the past

can't repeat the past?
why of course you can!

hosted by?
pitas.com

may answer to?
Sharon, Ronnie, Ron, Ron-Won, Spatula girl, Grill-gurl...

is not paid for?
Pretending to be cultured, Notes on "significant" past events, Pretending to be literate, Playing with fire and hydrochloric acid, Attending résumé padders / stuffing face with water, Probing numbers in painful ways, Using computers to probe numbers in less painful ways, Pretending to be bilingual.

addicted to?
Video games, comic books, print periodicals, lemon fanfics, real books, anime, manga, anything that seems to run on its own, electricity, fire, electrical fire, foods with no taste, running on my hamster wheel.

enamoured with?
bright flashing lights, anything relating to Rurouni Kenshin, anything with a sword, anything involving a sword metaphor, wolves, spiders, wolf spiders, things that remotely resemble a computer, things that involve a lot of seemingly mind-boggling text.

frightens?
bugs that move faster than I do, certain creepy hallways, school photos, any sort of photo id, AOL, msn, user-friendly interfaces.

i sold my soul to...
albhed NUCHI
A U R O N I S M
i want to be... Young Link (Super Smash Bros. Melee).

i have yet to save the world of...
Final Fantasy VII, Final Fantasy VIII, Final Fantasy X, Chrono Trigger, EarthBound, Golden Sun, Tales of Phantasia, Chrono Cross, Final Fantasy VI, Dragon Warrior, Dragon Warrior II... and many unfortunate others.

stalker's tools?
e-mail
aim

religious texts?
8-bit theater
megatokyo
userfriendly
penny arcade
life in japan

bishonen?
(in the order in which they come to mind) Himura Kenshin, Spike Spiegel, Tidus, Auron, Squall Leonhart, Irvine Kinneas, Link, Crono, Hajime Saitoh, Sephiroth, Seifer Almasy, Sagara Sanosuke, Magus

guilty as charged?
otaku: 36% corrupt (I would've scored much higher a year ago)
feminist: 91.4% pure
geek: 24% corrupt
mental purity: 63.8% pure